It was a long year of rain I wish there was a way where I could start to explain Crawled a wasted road, began to erode And I stared straight down the rabbit hole I tried to hold on to the world hold on to my world It was nothing but sand I had to let go of the world let go of my world a broken man.

What if I Went a million miles away Just to overcome feeling numb Wonder why I could ever trust again Took all of me just to be free Why did I Follow your voice everywhere it led Got turned around and pulled down (Follow me) What if I Fell into your rabbit hole again. You would hold me down, and let me drown Why would you Twist the truth around our lives Change the things that make me me What if you Got your wish I crashed and burned Maybe someday I'll learn How did you Tempt me and turn me around You captivate and isolate I'll be who I need to be. All for you, just follow me I will be your everything, your love and joy, Your suffering I let you light the fire to watch me burn and I return, I never learn. Ill be who I need to be, long enough, you'll follow me I'll make you want even more and siren you into the shore Follow me I never wanted To ever be So blind to you that I can't see The bitter I tasted Nothing was wasted Now I'm done Now I'm done Will this page Ever turn What if I Finally learn

Closing my eyes, I'm on the same boat Paging through thoughts that I penned and wrote Wishing blue skies in the year of night And all of the damage from my past life These waves These rogue waves All day long I watched the fan spin Remembering now where I've been I could see the frame, but the picture's blurred The waves were strong and my thoughts obscured These waves These rogue waves I heard the church bell ring I covered up my ears I heard the siren sing I fell again lost another year I slipped by the way and fought through the grey and dropped down to my knees And breathe, and breathe. breathe These rogue waves

There's a place we used to play Two trees and fields and the sunny day A place to keep our memories And waste the day away You know the years changed our lives With different roads, we arrived To where we're meant to be So far apart, how time flies So when the day comes around To relive our joys and the lives we found I come and knock on your door But you're not here anymore It was you that I heard It was you in every word They were loving and kind That helped me to find To leave this mourning behind So I'll sing I'll Sing this praise to you I'll Sing this praise to you I'll Sing this praise to you I'll Sing this praise to you Pater noster, qui es in caelis, sanctificetur nomen tuum. Adveniat regnum tuum. Fiat voluntas tua, sicut in caelo Et in terra.

Its funny whenever we agreed To see each other and talk It was always a black coffee and a tea And I'd stare at the clock He always said in conversation That I was just like him And  it felt like an accusation So I'd take it on the chin I could run far and run fast, and try to be free Is it true what they say about the apple and the tree? You always said I should listen That somehow you knew best The only way was your direction My rolling eyes wished you'd give it a rest I learned nothing wrong with being content Wishing life was ordinary Waiting all my life for you to say You're proud, yeah that's a lot to carry But bringing up the past never does any good And if I could change a thing, I'm not sure that I would I could run far and run fast, and try to be free (I'll Run.......). But it's true what they say about the apple and the tree (I'll Run.....) We were talking round in circles treading the same ground The battle field is empty now and there's no one left around If we had tried just a little And we each took a step Maybe we could have been. Would have been .... We could have been closer We could have been closer. We could have been closer We could have been close We could have been closer We could have been close

Sometimes I want to get away And I sit alone in my car With the radio off and the engine on But I never really get very far I take a good look in the mirror It scares me what I see So little of who I remember Nothing of who I wanted to be When the water is wide and I'm drowning And I'm trying to fight it back Go to the attic pull out that wood box Started paging through some old photographs I thought of my old friends happy Remember the days I could really laugh I picked up the phone Cause I'm feeling disconnected Thinking of where we've gone I wonder if we're living the way we wanted The feeling of "happiness" its been so long When the water is wide and I'm drowning and I'm trying to fight it back When the water is wide and I'm drowning Remember all the good things All the good things Remember all these good things As I lie awake at night Pray you're dreaming peacefully Realize my happiness has always been there Why could I never see it? When the water is wide and I'm drowning And I'm trying to fight it back When the water is wide and I'm drowning And I want me back The love of a child, A morning sunrise Summer breezes and clear blue skies Talk with a friend about healing scars Golden sunset and a night full of stars An anchor in life that helps you cope Something to wish for and a heart full of hope

Theres a lot of shame We hide our face Theres a lot of pain Not a lot of grace We hide behind our lovers We hide behind our drink We hide behind the lies Behind the ink There's a lot of rain All in one place Lots insane In this never ending race We hide behind our laughter Hide behind the smile Hide behind our anger Hide behind our style Theres a lot of hope If we reach high Theres a lot of love Deep inside Don't hide behind perfection Hide behind the screen Playing one another And standing in-between So play in the sun and dance in the rain And make that first date and play that game (don't hide) Tell them you love them and write that song (sing along) Forgive everyone and say your wrong Don't Hide, Don't Hide Don't Hide (Hide behind the failure) (Hide behind the ego) Don't Hide (Hide behind frustration) (Hide behind the show) Don't Hide

Pt2 - Grandiose Running and running as long as I can Fighting so hard for this life I had I'm holding on, I can barely stand And all that I needed was just your hand With the army you raised, showered in praise For the very breath that I breathe With the slight of your hand, the life that you stole As I fell down the rabbit hole I'm Fine Running and running as long as I can Fighting so hard for the life I had I'm holding on, I can barely stand And all that I needed was just your hand With the army you raised, showered in praise For the very breath that I breathe With the slight of your hand, the life that you stole As I fell down the rabbit hole Pt.3 Spirals (INSTRUMENTAL) Pt 4 Finding We're talking and talking, learning who we are I can see that we both, wear the same scar You're shaking, hurting, in every breath you breathe Here take my hand, I will help you stand In the space between, light and darkness I've learned to choose happiness Now its time to wake up and learn to be whole And climb back out of the rabbit hole Someday you'll rise You will rise You've shared every hope, and every sin finding out who you are, you've come so far You're growing and shining, with every breath you breathe So I've loved you, now you love you We both know that life, can be so hard It can drown us, and leave us scarred Now stand in the sun, let it fill your soul Only love will keep you from the rabbit hole Someday you'll rise Open your eyes See the sun rise Pt 5 Sunrise (the promise) (INSTRUMENTAL) Pt 6 - Humbling I was smokin and thinking bout the bridges I burned All the waste in my life and the lessons I've learned When it comes down to it with every breath I've breathed It was all to belong, or so I believed From the anger I held And the love I withheld Confusion clearly for everyone to see Remembering the days spinning out of control I'll never go back down that rabbit hole. I apologize It's time to rise So I've been praying and sayin I've been grateful for a lot Finding joy in my life, doing what I've been taught I reach out, to whoever I can, when all they needed was just a hand (take my hand) With the people who praise, and the work each day I rose from the wreckage, stayed clear of the edge I'm mostly together but I'll never be whole Cause there's parts of me left in that rabbit hole But I still rise Think I'll watch the sun rise Amen

Go outside and wait for me Please stay where I can see you I wont be but a minute, you will see Just wait for me I saw your faces through the window Between us the line of dominoes They began to fall, you played patiently Just wait for me Really doesn't matter now but I wanted you to know That I'd never ever let you go So one day this valley will end And this stranger can be your friend These broken pieces will start to mend And the healing will begin Ive seen more days then I will see When I fall behind I want you to be free Go run on ahead and see all you can see Don't wait for me So one day this valley will end And this stranger can be your friend These broken pieces will start to mend And the healing will begin I'm sorry I became unwell There are so many stories I have to tell Still I talk to you each and every day Wishing you could hear what I say Even though I want to see you happy I'd love to hear you sing I want to hold you always, Save you from everything When you go live your life, Don't wait for me I hope to learn who you become, Don't wait for me I will love you anyway I pray you're strong and kind, But don't wait for me There's no chain on my door, When you come home Just know how proud I'll be, wherever you've flown I hope to learn who you become, don't wait for me

I found the place they called home All painted red and overgrown Hoped I'd pass through and be on my way There were lessons to learn, and I had to stay These ghosts would taunt me and they hid the key I found myself lost there and I couldn't get free So I gathered up my secrets and all of my thoughts And I burned them in the fire so I would not get lost..... again So farewell to anger, goodbye to shame Leave behind the ashes of all of the pain All these ghosts blind me and I had no defense It was hard to find the lesson or make any sense....at all If the ash of that season were to come through my door I'd offer shame my secrets I don't hide anymore Anger needs love like anything else They come and leave gently and say their farewells again.... and again So farewell to anger, goodbye to shame Leave behind the ashes of all of the pain Every so often they reappear But ghosts can only live in a place, in a space, called fear. We will meet again But now I know your name We will meet again

You'll never be tolerated, Masqueraded as love So never feel isolated, separated from love Its not underrated or complicated to feel Love is not being hated, discriminated, its real Knowing that you're created Illustrated by God You will aways be safe and warm Here in my arms You'll alway be celebrated, Decorated with love. Always feel celebrated, Decorated with love So Loved

Good friends can come and go Remember when we watched that movie once Now It feels a lifetime ago Some things don't work out No matter with all you do Confusion is what life's about I wish I knew Are you happy now? Because I'm happy now And I wish the same for you. I do. I do. I wish the same, I wish the same, the same for you Who really knew life was so strange So I just went right along But life can show you the need for change We lost each other in the crowd Pulled apart by all life's noise And now the silence seems so loud ...... So loud I had to question all I knew Who's thoughts were living in my head But you were gone when I got through...... but I got through I want to know Are you happy now? Because I'm happy now You know I wish the same for you I do. I do. I wish the same, I wish the same, the same for you So now no more siren song And no more rabbit hole These waves they don't feel so strong So here we are I am happy now And if you're happy now Would you wish the same for me?